What an Emotional Day

What an emotional day it has been. Of course, everybody knows it's the anniversary of that horrible day when the Twin Towers and the Pentagon were hit. I thought about that on my way to work and cried for all those that were lost and those that were left behind.

Then, I get to work and cry for my boss who didn't come in today. I knew he wouldn't. I worry about him. What will I say to him when I do see him? I really don't know what to say. How do you tell somebody you are sorry that they lost their job? It was hard to concentrate on my job today. I kept wondering if he was okay. He had told me a couple of weeks ago that his wife was really worried about what was going to happen to them. She doesn't work as far as I know, so I'm sure she is upset. And they have two little kids.

We had a meeting today to show us changes to one of our computer programs. This whole week is laced with some type of meeting. I would really just like to take off for a week and go some where and vegetate - not have to think about anything.

I find myself turning to food for comfort and I'm gaining back the weight I just lost. I'm like an alcoholic who takes that first drink and then can't stop. I just want to eat all the time. Fran called to ask me about the new product that L.A. Weight Loss is using in their program. Maybe I should call them and start going back. I know I can lose weight with them. If I could just get in the habit of cooking again, I would be able to lose the weight. That's the thing about weight loss - you have to eat to lose. And you have to cook and plan your meals. That's just too much trouble for me. I don't want to have to think and plan and cook. Too bad I'm not rich like Oprah and could hire my own chef to make sure I eat the right foods. That would be the ideal answer to my problem. Dream on! That would be the perfect world and we just don't live in a perfect world, do we?

I think I need to go to bed before I go in the kitchen and take the rest of the Oreo Sonic Blast out of the freezer and eat it. I bought one yesterday and only ate half of it. If I sit here much longer, I will talk myself into eating it. And I certainly don't need it. I'm so miserable now that I don't know what to do with myself. I've eaten way too much food today. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better and I won't feel the need to medicate myself with food. Please keep Kenny (my boss) and his family in your prayers.

Goodnight and God bless.....................